That Pain

I was not there for her.

I was not there.

I was ...

I am an idiot. I don't know why I didn't rush her to the ER myself when she was with me in pain. I feel the pain now. I'm out of breath. I just spoke to her mom. Promised I will call back. Did not even ask where it was. I guess after 5 calls someone picking up was when I released a huge sigh!

I cross my heart and hope to die. I don't know what has happened. I am jinxed. I feel disgusted.

I am in tears, I don't know what to do now. I am waiting.

A small list of songs I made for her ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYhhZQx0Xhg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjVQ36NhbMk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPBzTxZQG5Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6thmPrTxBtI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6nevGNYTkA